Paperdoll.

So i tell you everything that's going on in my life, the good and the bad. why? because i considered you my best friend. We were pretty damn tight. People actually thought we were a lesbian couple by how close we were. wow.

My (once) dear friend, this you must realize... you are always in the spotlight. because you strive so hard to get there. always the center of attention, always the drunk one standing up on the table at the party and dancing, singing, doing the crazy thing just to make everyone around you drunkenly fall in love with you.

but let me tell you this also...a person like you can never be a true good friend, because you are not to be trusted. not with valuable information, not with out valuable belongings, and especially not with our emotions. i was one of those unfortunate people to fall in love with your outwardly bubbly and loving attitude. but i realize now that i too quickly gave my heart, my emotions and my secrets away to you. you, right now, are the very reason i am doing the very thing you absolutely despise. no, its not all your doing. but hell, you only made it worse.

i am sorry to lose you as a friend, but i now realize, that i was the only one in our relationship being real, and believing that we had a deep connection. if you were ever to read this insanely long rant, i don't think that even then, you would realize the hurt you inflicted on me, and the hardness that has come to my heart because of it.

x