Trifid 오 Nebula

2010-01-20T15:23:00.002+08:00

http://iwasherhorse.blogspot.com/

2010-01-18T09:56:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry your stepmother is a nympho.

2010-01-16T11:09:00.000+08:00

remarkable.

2010-01-15T22:58:00.010+08:00

Our 2 day trip to Manila city ended up with a road trip around Philippines and an extra 3 days over night at 3 different hotels. All we did was eat huge portions of food, had long trips in the van and quarrel. pffft. Tell me, what's the fun in that? The only 'fun' thing i did was to shop around Robinson mall. We even got lost in the Manila highway for 5 hours...can you imagine that. Us going round and round. I've been so exhausted. All i wanted to do was sit at home with the good ol' telly and star movies. I can't say anything else about the trip because i've totally forgotten some other stuffs that might have been "interesting". sigh. Oh hey here's a wonderful story, I had my retainers done this afternoon, at least that was exciting. My hairs been behaving very well, that's a plus. My eyelashes aren't doing so good, but it's alright- kinda getting tired of taking care of them extensions. Other than that, my step mom has been manipulating me into studying here for 2 years. Hah lawyer ain't my thing neither am i gonna be a doctor or a nurse, woman!- that's like totally ancient civilisation times. Those ain't ma thang yo feel me dawg.

Although i thought, i could do something real. Something normal brainwashed human beings do. Something i can manage. Prolly like an architect?

At least it's better then trying to be a movie star.

Just about 13 days left and i'm uber looking forward to flying back, exchanging gifts and shits to each other. I miss the alone time in redhill. Seriously. Even if i have to face reality all over again

- starting with a job hunt.

2010-01-09T15:28:00.001+08:00

my saturday stay-home afternoon movie.

counting down from 19

2010-01-09T14:51:00.005+08:00

Fam and i almost decided to have a short getaway to Boracay (beach paradise) for a week, but we ended up cancelling the plan cus of some 'internal' issues...or something. it would have been awesome if we get to spend a few nights there though- irfan has been telling me all about the psytrance beach parties and stuffs they held in boracay island. i was so looking forward to that. sucha huge meltdown.

So Monday, we'll be driving to Manila City- according to dad, it's a 5 hour drive to the capital land. from there, we'll spend a night or so and then head back here to Pangasinan , Alaminos.

On the other hand, i just came back home from my 3rd trip down the beauty parlour to have my stinkin' eyelash extension fixed cus i accidentally pulled a few of the 'lashes' out this morning. haha. It's beginning to annoy me. seriously. Gramma and i spent the entire morning choosing tiles for 'our' new house too. And my step mom had to get in the way when i wanted to choose this particular tile for the roof porch. ugh! whatever. Not as if i'm gonna live here in the Philippines in the future anyway. Thank god for that. *phew.

fyi, i bought nerds!

xx

2010-01-07T11:02:00.001+08:00

I slept at 9pm last night. wow.
fml. seriously.

20 fucking lonesome days to go.....

2010-01-06T11:01:00.002+08:00

two thumbs up.

driven.

2010-01-06T10:10:00.002+08:00

Look, yesterday my dad and i drove a whole lot. Even in the van i could feel my skin melting. My hair was in a mess and i was downing a bucket of water. About 2 hours drive to the city of Dagupan where my dad bought a few mechanic stuffs for his van and worms for his two ugly fishey's at home. Afterwards, went to this 'dead' mall called CSI (hahah i gave a big 'lol' to my dad) and i bought a few stuffs to bring back to sg. One for me, one for you, and one for Huda but apparently i heard she doesn't like what i bought. Fucking choosy. Next time i don't get you anything ok? I'm trying to be a nice friend here, hello. Stating the fact that you've already ditched me at the airport and many other days back in sg. Making me wait over an hour in town. wtf seriously dude? Ok now i'm mad pissed.

So anyway, i know what Irfan wants (i might get it later this afternoon or tmr...no rush) and i already bought something for Joys. I feel like Santa Claus. bwahaha.

Ok the ride home took about another 2 hours, in the dark mind you, cus they do not have proper street lamps and my dad's headlight wasn't working well. Fucking impossible to drive but nether the less, we made it back home, ALIVE! Well there was always my ipod, owl city and the huge black sky occupied with stars. I kept poking my head out of the window to look at the stars. I mean, we never get that in Singapore. It was really messy. Sparkling everywhere. it was nice (;

hmmm... 21 more days till i fly.

2010-01-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

24 more days to go....

and when i return, i'll get me one of those hamburger phone. ((:

day 3.

2010-01-03T17:36:00.003+08:00

I slept at the earliest time last night. 10pm to be exact. Woke up perspiring like a maniac cus gramma didn't want the fan on. I had to make do with the faint aircon from the hall so i left our room door wide open. Managed to sleep till 12noon cus my dad woke me up to have lunch. My dad is the worst alarm clock EVER! It's the kind that gives you this argh-shut-the-fuck-up-i'm-awake-already mood. yeah.

So after lunch, aunt mary (who's my step mom) brought me to the 'market' or 'mall' or whatever that is... i didn't know whether i wanted to have my hair short or to have it curled again... but i ended up curling it. what the hack it only cost me 10 bucks anyway. when it comes to my hair- i'm seriously clueless about it. then i had manicure and padicure done for 4 bucks for both! beat that!

anyway i'll upload the pics on fb soon.

25 days to go...

continued (day 2)

2010-01-02T21:17:00.003+08:00

....soo the continuation of my second day turned out pretty well. at least we didn't have to do so much in one day. From Angeles, my dad drove us all the way to Sual which was like a 3 hour journey- stopped at jollibee (a fast food joint that's famous here, something like our MacDonald's) to have light snacks and then carried on driving till we reached our new claimed land where my dad's building his restaurant and our house behind. We could see the mountains and rice padi fields but our house was located on the wrong side of the road so we've been blocked by tall trees and plants- it'll be awesome to see the mountains from our porch or window but nahhhh! Ain't gonna happen. I wanted our house to look like the British colonial houses but that was impossible too cus they've planned everything out already. hahahah

We're finally back at my dad's temporary house and thank god there's an Internet connection that i can access here. We had chili crabs for dinner and now every one's asleep. You should see the amount of mosquitoes flying around the store room. My goodness, i was holding the insecticide the entire time spraying them one at the time. killing them all...slowly.

day 2 is done (yipee!)
and i'm counting down to 26 more days.

half day

2010-01-02T09:57:00.003+08:00

This place is stupid. Last night i've been watching the telly while my grams was sleeping next to me. It's 9am already and i'm awake. had to force myself out of bed to have breakfast with 'the family'. I don't even know what's the plan now but i think we might be driving our way to Sual then to Manila and then take a flight to Iloilo to visit my uncle and cousins. i hope i have an internet excess on the other side of the Philippines. bloody hell.

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day 1 in the 3rd world country

2010-01-02T00:16:00.007+08:00

I only had 3 hours of sleep and took a 30 min nap on the 4 hour flight to the Philippines. I took a few pictures of the clouds and the sunset on my stinkin camera phone- cus i don't own a camera, well not yet, but it was great that the quality didn't turn out shitty. So the moment we landed, we had our passports stamped and we were finally out into the pit of hell. My dad was waiting for us outside and he drove us all the way to this little crappy hotel temporarily for a night till we drive to Sual tmr morning. That's where my dad currently lives. I was bored to my wits and there wasn't any Internet connection in my room so my dad brought me around to see the town of Angeles. Bars after bars after shots of rose...something and San Miguel beers, girls in bikini's bar top dancing and old white dudes who's hungry for some young flesh. Bar hopping HAH! with my dad! double HAH!

I'm so bored. i'm so so super majorly bored and tired. I don't wanna be here anymore. I feel that i'm in man vs wild here. ahhhhh! I wanna go back home. I'm home sick. I don't know how to survive for the next 27 days. :( and plus i'm having a flu. my throat hurts like a mother toooot! and can you believe that my grams is already nagging that i'm always wasting my time on the internet. WTF!!! seriously! It already kills me being here all alone. Why can't i be with my only friend 'the internet' on my darkest moments in life! pfft!

i wanna go home!!!!!

Anyway, hopefully i get to post day 2.

Man, i don't how tmr is gonna be like. i miss everyone.

hangover remedy.

2010-01-01T04:50:00.005+08:00

FINALLY WE'RE DONE WITH THE COUNTDOWNS! HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR BALLS. BLAH BLAH COME TRUE BLAH BLAH FUCK YOU.

fucking flying off in about 10 hours time. Contemplating whether i should sleep or stay awake till i board the plane and just knock out there so that i don't have to face anyone and endure the squeezy sits. I hate the toilet, i hate the food and i especially hate you...TO THE FUCKING CORE!

oh oh...and i love twitter, bitches.

adios 2009'

2009-12-31T10:47:00.001+08:00

the end is near.

once a jerk always a jerk

2009-12-31T10:00:00.003+08:00

thanks for the memories. that was the best way to end 2009. for that, i deeply sincerely appreciate what you did cus now i can move on. let this be a reminder to you that you NEVER and i repeat K.H NEVER hit a girl whether she's a slut, your mother or your daughter. now piss off dog.

2009-12-30T19:45:00.000+08:00

LIAR LIAR YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR!

year end sale.

2009-12-30T19:11:00.014+08:00

Great. Sezairi was a downer. Looks like i won't be able to watch Avatar. Not with him, not with my friends, not with any living thing. My brother's msg tone is fucking creepy. My shoulder hurts like a fucking cb right now. You're a psycho and that's why you're my EX! Fucking hell. I'll be leaving in two days time- finally visiting the Philippines after 2 years. I have absolutely no plans what so ever for the eve of new years count down- and with whom is the question. 2009 was a real waste of time. I can't actually remember how many jobs i had this year. How many stupid things i've done and regretted. I had the entire house to myself for a year. No one bothered, no one nagged. Then...grams moved in and now she's prolly moving out. Ugh! But there's still my pesky lil brother. I FUCKING HOPE HE DOESN'T MESS WITH MY STUFFS OR I'LL BREAK HIS COLLARBONE! Speaking of break- yeah i've broken way too many hearts. Mine broke too. I think. Yeah, actually it did. One time. Wonder if it's repaired yet. I never thought i would actually be in a relationship with someone so different from me. We were like living in two seriously different worlds. But that ended too. Ohh and i even had this thought that i might be gay. haha. i actually thought i was gay. Weird. Cus i found myself not being interested in anyone anymore. Yeah i mean i do say this guy's cute and that guy's cute once in awhile, but nothing more...

I also found out that this year i was very fond of Natalie Portman and Tom from Tokio Hotel... and together with other random stuffs....i can't think of any right now. This year i bought quite a number of heels. Yeap, heels obsession started when i could actually walk in those nasty but oh-so-gorgeous murderers. Don't as me what's my new years resolution. Next year, I might just drop dead and start spasming on the floor.

salute!

2009-12-28T22:21:00.002+08:00

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

2009-12-28T18:05:00.005+08:00

2nd song i like.

x

2009-12-28T18:01:00.002+08:00

When the twighlight sings,
its washed away, way by the sea
open up your eyes, believe the dream
You see how I feel,
that feeling something's just not real
we are drifting through the stars
floating here to Mars
Believe the dream

倒带

2009-12-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
er ni zong shi tai wan ming bai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
wo men mian jian tai duo zu ai
ni de shou que fang bu kai
ning yuan mei chu xi qiu wo bie li kai

2009-12-27T19:27:00.010+08:00

“There are four questions of value in life... What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.”

- Johnny Depp

i live to make you free

2009-12-26T19:07:00.002+08:00

But you can sky-rocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by....

x

jinggle wriggle.

2009-12-24T20:08:00.005+08:00

Just a day away from Christmas. Yet i don't really feel that christmassy vibe. Anyways, grams will be at home alone so i figured i shall stay with her and keep her company- i don't really see myself accompanying her when i'm always on the laptop, but the thing is, i tried and that's good enough for me and hopefully for her too. Last night was the night at East coast park. I had exactly 3 to 4 rounds of BBQ chicken wings and BBQ prawns. I was stuffed. Belly was way bloated although i thought i could maybe squeeze in a little more of the chocolate cake that everyone said was delicious but figured nah...shall give it a pass. The morning of Christmas eve and it was raining. I'd say i enjoyed the wet roads, droplets on the window panes and the cool morning breeze. Made me feel like we were in La push for a moment heh. (: there goes me daydreaming...

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2009-12-23T09:01:00.000+08:00

FUCK! I just downloaded msn live, changed my laptop's wallpaper. Finally had a few pictures in my picture folder. I remembered correctly i had 2 downloaded songs in my music folder and all of these were done last night. Now the moment i woke up, my stinking brother is sleeping on MY couch- cus i do have my own personal couch at home, and everything in my laptop is brand new again! Fuck my life! Seriously! Everything is gone once again.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK HE IS TRYING TO DO. RUIN MY FUCKING LIFE!? SORRY BUT THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE. FUCKING NO USE OF A SCUM! BLOODY MORONIC TWAT! IF I DO HAVE A GUN RIGHT NOW HE DESERVES TO GET SHOT! ON THE ARM!

all because of my IP address.

2009-12-22T19:23:00.005+08:00

My Internet was in a huge tsuanmi state for the past 4 days. I gave up after trying to "fix" it myself. So I called Starhubs hotline who then referred me to the linksys hotline. Soon after being on the phone for exactly half an hour the linksys guy told me to call starhub again to delete some dial-up shit. Then sturhub told me to call linksys back to configure my linksys router which eventually worked. At the end of the day, LINKSYS SAVED MY INTERNET OBSESSED LIFE (: and im thrilled!!! 2 whole hours. 2 fucking hours on my handphone. Not fogetting i've been using GPRS too. CUS I DO NOT HAVE WIFI ON MY STINKING CHEAP NOKIA PHONE. Fuck my bills. My lousy-no good-for-my-pocket internet and handphone bills. God have mercy on me. please. :( i'm just an innocent internet freaked girl.

kaulitz<3

2009-12-21T04:55:00.001+08:00

big kiss little hug

2009-12-21T03:29:00.010+08:00

So after the crazy night out at Zirca with Joys (thank god we bumped into Nazihah and Syahril- who are my ex secondary school classmates btw cus it sure was nice to see familiar faces) I was ready to leave all the foul breath horny predators not forgetting awfully sweaty and packed scene behind. It was definitely the first time seeing little miss Naz drunk i tell ya. She was practically falling everywhere. Joys and myself had to hold her hand the entire time to keep her on her feet. She couldn't balance right, she couldn't see us (the fact that she kept squinting her eyes) but I liked her dress though, she looked amazing init. Omg and she was even wearing this particular heels that i had been eyeing on, WHICH i eventually didnt get. But nonetheless she looked terrific. So does Joys...i've been spending quite a few odd days with her clubbing and chillin'. She's finally wearing dresses, doing her nails ($160 bucks on nails mind you!- well i think it's madness) After a year plus of separation (i've known her for like the past 4 years of my teenagehood) we finally are hanging out again and she's been doing so well now. It's nice.

Moving on, Giselle's finally 18. Isn't it nice to be finally legal. On your way to adulthood...being mature and sensible?? She held a party at Swisshotel and guilty as charged i ate most of her chocolate cake. WHAT!? I mean it was nice and it had tiny crunchy chocolate balls in them. Ok i was hungry! Besides, no one seems to be touching them. I was so hungry i had to steal the cup noodle in the drawer too. Sooo incredibly hungry that both the cake AND the cupnoodle wasn't enough i had to sleep with my tummy rumbling. fml.

Here's the best part that happened to me throughout the entire week, no the entire year or should i say my entire LIFE! I got back home nice and quiet- like i normally do. Turned on my laptop and BOOOOOM! a blue screen appears which required me to enter my full name, home address and all that bullshit! MY FUCKING STINKING TOAD OF A BROTHER REFORMATTED MY- I REPEAT, MY LAPTOP! EVERY THING'S GONE. MY PICTURES FROM WAY WAY WAY WAY BACK AND SONGS...LOADS OF SONGS AND MOVIES AND MORE FUCKING SONGS! At least 20GB worth of songs ;( then i started crying like a pussy. cried.. and cried. But i'll be fine... . I know i'll cry again cus it hurts but yeah, i'll be fine. -NOW I WANT A SONY ERICSSON AINO FOR MY BIRTHDAY (which is on the 11th of FEB btw) to make things better(: .... or if you're kind hearted enough to give it to me on a earlier date like say for Christmas or new year or something i will be more than willing to except it with all my heart hehe.

On the other hand. Such a sudden shock to the world. AND to me. It's so sad to hear that Brittany Murphy passed away this morning after she went into full cardiac arrest and could not be revived- heart attack- asthma attack or something. Poor thing. I really liked her in the 8 miles movie though... :( r.i.p

Guess it takes time again- seriously a whole lotta time putting my itunes into place again- all the songs i once adored and currently adore. MAN! Building up my photo gallery from scratch. Granny said to just start afresh. pfft. yeah sure. fresh sounds nice.

O.

Anagram Genius

2009-12-17T22:08:00.001+08:00

'Glennys De Leon Toh'
anagrams to
'Honestly! On legend.'

try it. http://www.anagramgenius.com/server.html

2009-12-17T21:09:00.007+08:00

Granny's considering paying for my driving liscense!
She even asked me to think of a course im interested in for my diploma. Man she's as fickle minded as me. One day she'll be saying school isn't important and the next, she tells me to go learn something. And i've made up my mind. OK! I know what i wanna do! (:

2009-12-16T17:31:00.001+08:00

e t’adore, Je t’adore (I love you, I love you)
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose

take a gun and count to 3

2009-12-16T17:20:00.001+08:00

As my life flashes before my eyes
Im wondering will I
Ever see another sun rise
So many wont get the chance to say goodbye
But its too late to think of the value of my life

so just pull the trigger.

2009-12-15T03:12:00.001+08:00

I want the "us" 6 months ago.

w e k e

2009-12-15T03:04:00.004+08:00

You've changed alot. I regretted what i did. I was pushy...very persistant.
I know i was starting to annoy you too... i couldn't believe myself either. But

i want you back.

2009-12-14T17:25:00.002+08:00

After so long. I...i....i still like you. I really do.

2009-12-14T01:22:00.001+08:00

Last night. It ended. We ended. I am cruel. I know.

Goodbye.

2009-12-14T00:41:00.001+08:00

To make my move, I'm almost there
Everything I say I say to me first
Everything I do I do to me first
So what, I lied I lied to me too
(so what?)

movies i would like to watch.

2009-12-10T23:30:00.003+08:00

The lovely bones
The blind side
Avatar
Sherlock Holmes
The imaginarium of doctor parnassus
Day breakers
Youth in revolt (micheal cera! omg omg omg!)
Leap year
Whip it

those are just a few of them.

2009-12-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

Thank god for Discovery travel & living.

O

2009-12-09T05:40:00.007+08:00

I'm sorry for my weakness in teenage vampire love story's but i am so in love with twilight! NOW I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR ECLIPSE TO START FILMING! I should thank my cousin Kristen for introducing Twilight to me before Twilight even started showing in the theatres. My goodness... just as i thought my interests for twilight was slowly dying, i'm obsessed all over again. Twilight's good for the soul.
P.s I still hate Belle's character. She annoys the hell out of me...argh! Not forgetting bad acting skills!

2009-12-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

My heart goes out to the kid's family, but we've done everything we can to prevent this type of thing from happening.

2009-12-07T05:35:00.001+08:00

You'll make me work so we can work to work it out

2009-12-07T05:11:00.001+08:00

LOVE.HER.STYLE.

seamonkeh.

2009-12-07T04:43:00.003+08:00

I know it's way way early to get you a birthday present, but yeah i love the wallet and i thought you might love it too. Seeing you drunk and happy last night made me smile. I couldn't believe it too that you managed to drive us to the west, when both of us were under the influence of alcohol. The house all to ourselves (: it was nice. I told you Silvia was nice, especially when it's blasted on the stereo. 4 years with you, no one knows you like i do and nobody will be able to understand you like i do.

hugs and tickles mr bollocks.

(he)art

2009-12-07T03:25:00.002+08:00

I can't find the moon, but it's okay.
That is where i'll be living soon.
It's for people like me, come visit if you can.
It's a place for the aimless, a place for us to dance.

I'm on the highway, i'm moving in to stay.
I'm under the cover of the night, you'll find me under the moonlight.

Just today, i'm gone forever.
Here to stay, write me a letter.
Just today, i'm gone forever.
Here to stay, send me your picture.

I'm on my way over, don't wait up for me.
Don't leave the nights on, don't hide the keys.
This is me, in shadows hiding from the world.
Sit by the ocean side, listening to the ocean tide.

I'm on the highway, i'm moving in to stay.
I'm under the cover of the night, you'll find me under the moonlight.

(credits: baker.)

GHOST.

2009-12-06T22:01:00.002+08:00

i'm flying on the clouds that leads to hell
my ghost told me there wasn't anymore hope that leads this trail.
he cuffed my heart up and threw away the key
and told me no regrets this is all meant to be.

he's my bestfriend
he's right here
teaching me how to disappear
from this first layer of hell we call earth.

come along he said, this is how you do it dont be afraid.
before you know it, it's all done and you're gone.
right now, you have to accept the fact that you're already dead
and function the way you're supposed to, hysterical blindness.

the gates of hell wasn't how i pictured
it's better than the greens on earth rotting and dying
even the demon guards have a heart, they are compassionate.
they asked me if i wanted to be a sex slave or slaught for eternity.

(Song writer: Darren Drew Baker)

found.

2009-12-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

2009-12-05T19:06:00.001+08:00

I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some guy. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff. But isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?

2009-12-05T18:06:00.002+08:00

i should watch octane...this is just so incredibly intense...
Mischa Barton and Jonathan Rhys Meyers- who would have known...

all seeing eye

2009-12-05T17:10:00.005+08:00

flying off to the philippines on the 31st of december 2009.

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2009-12-03T18:24:00.001+08:00

Even though I reject most of the religious things, I can't help but feeling for all those people that come here lost or in pain, guilt, looking for some kind of answers. It fascinates me how a single place can join so much pain and happiness for so many generations.

don't care so much for final chances.

2009-12-02T04:05:00.001+08:00

There's a point in your life where you're disillusioned and where you go from being a naive person who will trust basically anyone... to the realization that not everyone is good and not everyone is well-intentioned. Then it becomes your decision how to deal with that—whether to become bitter and cynical right off or whether to become a good person and just be more cautious in seeing who's trustworthy and who isn't. I think that's the real maturation that everyone goes through—and that I went through recently—and I think it's the turning point in everyone's life.

x

i love you. i want to meet you.

2009-12-01T06:55:00.002+08:00

♥♥

she's like me- a fantasy.

2009-12-01T06:09:00.003+08:00

this is the world we live in

2009-12-01T04:52:00.006+08:00

So it has come to this point in my life where i have to shift my entire house to redhill. yes, the one place i thought was my haven, my sanctuary. Granny's gonna get cosied up with me...can you imagine her things and mine all clustered up together. So Wednesday's the big moving in day. I collected all my nick knacks from woodlands with the help of sea monkeh! He showed me his brand new sweet pad down at the west. It was empty, and i could think of about a million things on what to do with that empty apartment. That's when i started thinking, i needed my own place. And i need it soon!

Besides that, plans plans.....not really sure what the plans are. So far i've got to travel back to the Philippines, yeah back to the place where i was born (for some reason some random dude thought i was from Vietnam...that cracked me up). And then....from there, i thought of furthering my studies. Jyeah, going to college or something. Y'knw, further my studies, further away from here. Sea monkeh gave me a big pffft. But whatever, you're going to Aussie land anyway!? so what huh punk!- nah i'm just fooling around. *runs and hides*

Then... i found out those fairy lights cost 85 bucks. UNBELIEVABLE! Look how expensive this things can get during festive seasons. And plus i'm also very unhappy about my pay...a fucking rip off if you ask me. I am very displeased right now even my tummy's displeased too-it's giving me the rumblys. Btw, we slashed some zombies today, that's right niggahs! It's left 4 dead 2. They had guitars and samurai swords and chainsaws as weapons. SUPER NEAT! So, tmr evening, Aunt Mel and Uncle Bill will be flying back to the states. She's waiting upon my arrival too. Hoping i'll visit her soon...yeah soon....i hope. No it better be soon. I'm dying to get out of this shithole of a place. Singapore!? What does Singapore even meannnnn? What!? Where is it even located at? can you see it? Who lives there anyway? We should go to outer space and camp out there bet it'll be wayyyyy cooler.

Oh boy oh boy.. this must be the hunger talking. I can sense it. I have to go. No i really have to go.

mr bullocks.

2009-11-30T05:04:00.000+08:00

I could say that I'll always be here for you,
But that would be a lie and quite a pointless thing to do,
I could says that I'll always have feelings for you
But i've got a life ahead of me, I'm only 19

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

You always made it clear that you hated my friends,
You made me feel so guilty when I was running around with them,
And everything was always about being cool,
And now I've come to realise there's nothing cool about you at all

star collectors.

2009-11-30T03:54:00.002+08:00

2009-11-30T03:04:00.002+08:00

Still hanging on (for what)
Can`t operate (fired up)
I won`t eat eat and i sleep for you
No rest till i (get through)
Coz i`m holding out (for you)
Am i the only one who`s insane

Hey! you`re playing with my delerium
And the longer i wait the harder i`m gonna fall
Stop! playing with my delerium
Coz i`m outa my head and outa my self control

A rare occasion when you come on the phone. It's like a holiday I celebrate alone

2009-11-30T02:48:00.001+08:00

Well you don't want me and i should have known
My heart can't seem to let you go
You're not so special, you're not even close
You mean the least but you take the most

You've been a burden all at once
Sometimes I can't find the light switch
Sometimes I'd rather dwell in the darkness
Sometimes I'm better off alone
Sometimes has become a home

I hear your words so sweet, secure and flattering
I stare into the sea, as your waves crash over me
Almost upon the shore
Your words don't flatter anymore

2009-11-29T22:56:00.001+08:00

Why do people persist in a dissatisfying relationship, unwilling either to work toward solutions or end it and move on? It's because they know changing will lead to the unknown, and most people believe that the unknown will be much more painful than what they're already experiencing.

mic check 1,2,1,2

2009-11-28T06:31:00.003+08:00

Errr, errrrr testing......
I feel errrrrr.....peanuts! (: hahaha i just threw a peanut at my lift lobby, and whispered "whatever!" to the two man who came out of the lift (cus they made me wait!!) and i stepped on broken glass. and sank on the cab sit, and errr.....♥ beeeeeeeeer.
and go shoot yourself NOW! and errrr...... girl.on bicycle.blue horns.riding.clarke quey.ok......??
HAHAHHAA baker. ok. done. finato!

salute!

2009-11-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

If you feel you've paid the price,
And your wounds should cease to heal
And everything you love in life spins like a winding wheel.
If you should wake to find you're abandoned,
And the road you've traveled leads to a dead-end
When death creeps in to play it's part,
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.

-

the death of me

2009-11-26T15:23:00.002+08:00

Do I have nothing good left to say
Do I need whiskey to start fueling my complaints
People love to drink their troubles away
sometimes I feel that I'd be better off that way

'Cause maybe then I could sleep at night
I wouldn't lie awake until the morning light
This is something that I'll never control
My nerves will be the death of me, I know

So here's to living life miserable
And here's to all the lovely stories that I've told
Maybe drinking wine will validate my sorrow
Every man needs a muse and mine could be the bottle

Finally I could hope for a better day
No longer holding on to all the things that cloud my mind
Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn't seem so heavy
But then again, I'll probably always feel this way

Matilda.

2009-11-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

Everyone is born, but not everyone is born the same. Some will grow to be butchers, or bakers, or candlestick makers. Some will only be really good at making Jell-O salad. One way or another, though, every human being is unique, for better or for worse. Most parents believe their children are the most beautiful creatures ever to grace the planet. Others take a less emotional approach...

2009-11-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

I know what you mean about wishing somebody wasn't there, though. It's just usually it's myself that I wish I could get away from. Seriously, think about this. I have never been anywhere that I haven't been. I've never had a kiss when I wasn't one of the kissers. Y'know, I've never, um, gone to the movies, when I wasn't there in the audience. I've never been out bowling, if I wasn't there, y'know making some stupid joke. I think that's why so many people hate themselves. Seriously, it's just they are sick to death of being around themselves.

2009-11-24T18:49:00.000+08:00

You know what's the worst thing about somebody breaking up with you? It's when you remember how little you thought about the people you broke up with and you realize that is how little they're thinking of you. You know, you'd like to think you're both in all this pain but they're just like "Hey, I'm glad you're gone".

2009-11-24T17:15:00.002+08:00

Mr Magorium: [to Molly, about dying] When King Lear dies in Act V, do you know what Shakespeare has written? He's written "He dies." That's all, nothing more. No fanfare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words. The culmination of the most influential work of dramatic literature is "He dies." It takes Shakespeare, a genius, to come up with "He dies." And yet every time I read those two words, I find myself overwhelmed with dysphoria. And I know it's only natural to be sad, but not because of the words "He dies." but because of the life we saw prior to the words.
[pause, walks over to Molly]
Mr Magorium: I've lived all five of my acts, Mahoney, and I am not asking you to be happy that I must go. I'm only asking that you turn the page, continue reading... and let the next story begin. And if anyone asks what became of me, you relate my life in all its wonder, and end it with a simple and modest "He died."
Molly Mahoney: [starting to sob] I love you.
Mr Magorium: I love you, too.
[picks Molly up, sighs heavily]
Mr Magorium: Your life is an occasion. Rise to it.

A D D I C T

2009-11-23T20:11:00.001+08:00

2009-11-23T17:28:00.001+08:00

171109- you've captured me.

dear skunk

2009-11-23T17:16:00.001+08:00

last night, you bought me flowers.

i l o v e y o u babe.

3 days 2 nights.

2009-11-23T03:04:00.004+08:00

Pan pacific hotel. Sweet pad! Sweet steamer roooom! I love the bathroom!-somehow i am very particular about hotel bathrooms. They have to be neat, y'knw. And my balcony's view is AY-MAY-ZING! It's nuts out there. Worked my butt out in the gym too hahaha tried running 2.4km on the treadmill. FAILED! But i love working on that ski-ing machine thing though. I was hooked onto it for like the entire hour and there's even your very own built in telly- who would have known they had MTV!!!!! HAHAHAHAH It's sick! Gonna get tanned up again by the pool in the morning- the sun better not be playing hide and seek with me. Whooosh whoooosh!

2009-11-23T02:59:00.001+08:00

She had it all and lost it, now he's forever in space.
He circles Haley's comet, lights up the sky like a flame.
Now she's the star collector, she knows the signs and she knows what they mean...
Twinkle twinkle, little dream.

2009-11-23T02:58:00.000+08:00

I am drive. I am. I'm driven, for some
reason. But I don't know where I'm going.

You thought my heart was made of wood but I can hear it beat

2009-11-20T16:28:00.000+08:00

Am broken doll and you are the puppeteer
Take control for me and wipe away my fears

2009-11-19T15:53:00.000+08:00

Healing rain is a real touch from God. It could be emotional healing or physical or whatever.

....

2009-11-18T23:41:00.005+08:00

Firstly, i have too many things to say. Secondly, i might be going back to the Philippines. Thirdly, I love the things Aunt Mel brought back for me from the States. Absolutely love it, i went nuts i tell you! Ok, so last but not least, i just wanna end this entire thing with.... i had a lovely day at Tiong Bahru plaza for lunch with grandma and gang then soon after took a bus ride down to get an ipod nano for Uncle Bill at mustaffa center, had coffee and curry puffs at the local mama stalls for tea. We walked under the light drizzle from little india to bugis just to board bus 56 to my Grand Aunt's condo at Kim Seng road for dinner. Her persian partially ill-ed cat (pat's her name) is so freakin' adorable. And fury too, like a huge fury fur ball. Too bad i don't have a picture of her. Anyways, im finally back home at redhill, without my charger and 3 sticks of iceblast left. I'm missing that stupid skunk already! Damn it.

quickly grab on to our tounges

2009-11-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

chugga chugga chugga chugga shoe shoe!

2009-11-18T23:14:00.003+08:00

"charrrrliiiiieeeeeee, charrrrrrrrrrrrllllliiiiiiiieeeee, we're on a bridge charlie!

2009-11-18T22:59:00.003+08:00

holla holla

2009-11-17T17:20:00.005+08:00

So Aunt Mel and Uncle Bill arrived from the US yesterday and gave me a "surprised" visit in red hill. Ok, i was totally surprised. Like the moment i heard my Granny's and Aunt Mel's voice, i woke up from bed and woke that little skunk up too hahah. The funniest part was when i went out to say 'hi'- still with sleep in my eyes of course, i went back into my room to find that little skunk hiding under the blanket hahahha. I was laughing my balls out, like seriously. hahahah. As usual, blur as ever, he was speechless and i was speechless. Then there was this awkward kinda wierd silence. But all's good in the end. Nothing went wrong. We had an early dinner and then i left for "work" yeap... work ended up at the back of my house. hahaha to meet Woofy and Bobo. Those two doggys needs to be squished! I bet you're all confused right now. heh. But some of you might know what i'm talking about.
Damn it, why do i keep smelling those heavenly smelling fried chicken wings whenever i get up from bed, i swear my neighbours driving me crazy! Imagine me robbing them for chicken wings with a plastic water gun in my hand. grrr...

Anyways, i need to get ready now, meeting Miss Huda in town to sign a few stuffs at work and prolly if im lucky enough by the end of the day, i'll be able to meet that skunk too.

end.

-

2009-11-17T04:50:00.001+08:00

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unready
Oh i'm never really ready, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there

Me lose brain? Uh, oh! Ha ha ha! Why'd I laugh?

2009-11-17T02:08:00.004+08:00

Timbre was great. But apparently, it was just too bad they had to close at 2am. and so it was just the 5 of us without the lights, live band and aircon. Anyways, we made our last order of a huge bucket of ice and two tall glasses of mixers- which eventually was a waste cus we ran out of liqueur (who's clever idea was it anyway to get two more mixers??). Nether the less, pictures were fun. We had fun. Then... our little buddy Mr beer hung out with us by the river. OH BEERS! It was an absolute bliss. Ended up with a nice ride back home from a dear friend. You guys rock my nipple tassel out. HAHAHA!

Lots of wet wet salivas (:

list[en]

2009-11-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

When you're gone, I envy the people you're with
Cause they're with you
Nothing's wrong
I've just been here too long to pretend

2009-11-14T00:50:00.005+08:00

Life is not distant like that
It is mad
Just like a star that explodes
Or like notes
You should pretend not to know
It is slow

pop goes the weasel.

2009-11-13T09:38:00.001+08:00

I've been up all night watching mad tv online. IT'S JUST SO FREAKING HILARIOUS!

meet kuku and lulu. (reborn)

2009-11-12T20:30:00.004+08:00

happy birth-day you crazy kid!
eeeeeighteeeen atlas'

We're dancing, dancing. We will not die. Our days are multiplied. And I'm happy again.

2009-11-08T23:22:00.001+08:00

Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

You wasted your times
On my heart
You've burned
And if bridges gotta fall, then you'll fall, too

peepee.

2009-11-07T03:15:00.003+08:00

I love writting stuffs when im not sober. I feel... much more intelligent(ler).

overload. overweight. ??

2009-11-07T03:14:00.002+08:00

I know this is so random. But, i love my blue toe nails.
Vodka rules balls!

1604

2009-11-03T16:04:00.003+08:00

I'm at home. In the dark. typing. I decided to skip work today. Not because i wanted to play truant but because i can't work in an environment with someone always breathing behind your back. I hate Mas 'a.k.a mother goose' (who is btw just a asst supervisor in my shop- and who only cares about what my manager thinks of her because she only wants to get promoted every fucking time). I hate Marie 'a.k.a conniving fox' (who's this filipino biatch who always adds fire into the oil and has been polluting Mas 's mind with her never ending assumptions abt me). Basically if i continue working at that shithole of a place, i will turn up to be a very very very absolutely fucking unhappy life-form . Now would you please let me go before i cause any more damages into your lives.

What i need right now is a stick of cigarette. shit!

she's got you high (the big 30)

2009-11-02T23:25:00.001+08:00

flee fly foe.

2009-11-02T02:05:00.001+08:00

to turn back time....

2009-10-30T01:34:00.004+08:00

Grandma i'm sorry that things changed this year. Everything is falling apart. Everyone is leaving. You've been saying that you've been lonely and no one talks to you. I know that you're all alone at home and neither of us are there to accompany you, and i even imagined myself in your shoes and asked myself what's it like being old and lonely. In an empty flat. I'm terribly sorry that things have to end up this way. I'm so used to staying here now. I have everything that i need here and it's just a waste of money to abandoned it (just for a little while) and go live with you. But yet, maybe it isn't really a waste of money, as long as you can be happy. I guess it'll be worth it.

I know you called me up today just because you needed someone to talk to in the middle of the night. You kept going on and on about where to place this cupboard and what to throw and keep- before you send the movers to send a few more things in. You were just finding reasons to talk to me. I'm sorry i had to hang up on you cus i was using my handphone and we had almost an hour of conversation cus it was already 1am. I had to cut you up when you were grumbling about the fridge. I said i was going to call you back using the house phone but you said you'll call me back some other time and that i don't have to bother. I know i was being so rude towards you on the phone and i raised my voice a few times but i just couldn't help it. I hate it when i do that to you. I hate it to be away from you. I hate the fact that you're feeling so alone. I wish i could turn back time. I wish you didn't have to sell the house. I wish.... i wish that we weren't such an unhappy family.

ps. i miss you so badly, you have no idea.

goodnight.

We're living in a den of thieves

2009-10-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

2009-10-29T01:22:00.004+08:00

dart for my sweetheart says:
but i would rather tie a string round my vagag and feed it to the ponies in the forbidden forest
dream(ilohshix). says:
wtf is vagag? the name of ur extra toe?
dart for my sweetheart says:
no its the name of my nails growing from my forehead
dream(ilohshix). says:
wow
howdya grow nails on ur forehead?
by eating pigs toenail soup from the stall under ur block>?
hahahahaha
dart for my sweetheart says:
i actually had a sticker on my forehead that states push here than when i started peeling the stamp off and nails started growing randomly

2009-10-29T00:10:00.001+08:00

Today I had a thought. What if I... what if I had never met you?

Date with the night.

2009-10-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

Omg Omg- Oh my gawddd! Yeah yeah yeahs will be performing live in the esplanade on the 12th of january!
This means i REALLY REALLY- RE-HEE-LI need to save up!

god damn it!

pay day, may day.

2009-10-27T23:26:00.003+08:00